I know I seem to have had a heaping dose of that lately myself.
In truth, I think it's just that I'm in an uncomfortable place in my life right now. All the news I received from the hospital while I was sick, although it was information that I needed to have, it left me in a bit of a predicament.You see, although I felt largely unfulfilled some days, I wasn't really what I would call unhappy with my life. I had my bad habits like everyone else (smoking and drinking way too much caffeine), but I reasoned those away with how I could definitely have much worse habits ("I mean...it's not like I'm a real drug addict or anything...").
My time at the hospital told me that no matter how I tried to make my habits seem reasonable, that they were still killing me.
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The other thing is that in replacement of all the caffeine-rich drinks I was having, I've switched over to drinking juice some. Me, drinking juice...those that know me personally could tell you that's something they never thought they'd see.
The next thing is smoking. For the last 2 days, I've been trying to smoke some on an e-cigarette and cut back on how many real cigarettes I'm smoking. Draco and I have spent the morning looking over various websites and brands, comparing prices for starter kits and refills. I'm very curious about the flavored ones. I have found a site that carries coffee, vanilla and cherry (well, they carry more than that, but those are the ones I'm looking at). I thought about contacting them and asking them if they'd let me do a product review, but I really don't have enough traffic here to interest anyone for something like that.
I think we finally settled on the Victory Electronic Cigarette. The tobacco store close to our house has the starter kits for $25 and Draco and I are both considering getting one.
At first, he wasn't going to quit smoking with me, but after we talked last night, I think he's changed his mind and is looking forward to giving it a try himself. I'm really excited about the coffee flavored one.
This week, I'm also going to some decaf coffee. See if I can make my brain believe it's getting what it wants without the added crap that will put me on dialysis for the rest of my life.
OK, so I'm having to use some little tricks and lies on myself. I'm sure there are those out there that say it's just as wrong as bribing a child to get it to do what you want it to do, but I say it's more along the lines of positive reinforcement...and besides, if caffeine and smoking are really so bad for me (and I believe they are), who gives a crap how I have to go about getting off of them, just so long as I do?
Have you had to detox bad habits from your life? What did you give up and how?
Blessings,
Fae Moon
